All throughout the morning, as I was moving the furniture out and disassembling the bed, my mind had been preoccupied with a struggle I was having with a loved one. Even though I kept pushing the story of my problem with this person away it kept creeping back into my mind. I had been reaching out over and over to this person trying to resolve things and only receiving sporadic, off topic responses or radio silence. Much like the screw I was getting nowhere with this person and feeling frustrated.
When I caught myself getting frustrated while trying to coax the screw out of the bolt I stopped. I know how to receive favor and ease as well as create well being and solutions. What was I doing?? Intentionally willing myself to relax, I thanked God for taking care the details of disassembling the frickin bed, and specifically getting the screw out of the frame. I said thank you for the ease and effortless nature of the daunting task of clearing out the entire room by noon being completed with time to spare. That’s when I noticed I had been tightening the bolt onto the screw! While lefty loosey is a law unto itself the bolt was the opposite! My twisting the bolt lefty loosey was really making the screw righty tighty. NO! All that energy I had expended to turn the bolt had been counterproductive and I now had even more to unscrew. I took a deep breath and resumed the uncomfortable contorted position necessary to twist the bolt while holding the screw in place and…voila! Easily the bolt swiveled along the threads of the screw in the direction I desired and I was just using my bare hands! I realized that the challenge had come because I was moving the bolt in the wrong direction. I am someone who rides my faith and as a norm experiences ease and favor in my life. Because of this the challenge of the screw stood out. I got the message. It was difficult because I was heading in the wrong direction. PROFOUND!! I then made the connection that most likely my relationship frustration was coming from me approaching the situation from the wrong direction and that is why it felt so counterproductive. Even though it wasn’t a perfect universal resolution wrapped up beautifully and topped with a bow, it felt good to let go and stop running up the down escalator. I have faith that good will come from this upheaval in my relationship, I don’t know exactly how, but I know it will come. In the mean time I can stop heading in the wrong direction and just give this person the space they apparently desire and allow God to write the happy ending. Whew! Just in time for the floor guys. :)
When you really pay attention, everything is your teacher.